Day 30: Disappointed

My dear, I really need to train myself to update things regularly.


As usual since it's been a long time I'm not updating, there are a lot of things I need to share.

Graduation day. Now this is a big problem to every PG students here. The Board has changed the date and make our graduation day at 21st May!!! How ridiculous is that??? Graduation day before final exam?? Did they not think about the possibility of someone failed? What about resits & retake?! Besides, what kind of fun is that when they hold something like this before the horror of exam....

Worse, I told my parents about this this afternoon. And they said they probably won't come because there is no reason for visiting anymore. Oh Jesus I really want to go to Vatican together with my family!! This is a once in a life time opportunity, why did it end up like this??? They seriously not thinking about us who live far away from Switz, how nice is that!!! They did not even listen to us when some of us decided to discuss about this with oh our so lovely program leader, whom we can not trust anymore.

Case number two, I finally got my F&B Admin grade, which I have totally butchered up during final exam. I wonder if I should take a math course or something, surely the problem is not about I'm bad at calculation. I mean, I did that a lot during high school and even without calculator!!! 4 years of no calculations in university has somewhat ruined my skills I guess. Anyway, thanks to my project grade & the fact that they made it 60% project & 40% final exam, I still can pass. OMG my exam grade is horrible, thank God I got a great team ...

Case number three. My roomie is being impossible again. I know I complain a lot about her being too noisy & too focused on herself, that's why I always stay in the library until late these days, so she can call anyone she wants to, can listen to music as loud as she wants to, can invite some friends to the room.......and now she said she can't be my roomie anymore because I'm too QUIET to her liking. She said she frustrated because of that. Why is she so weird?? I gave her her space already and now she wants to kick me out of the room. She even asked the Student Affair already without telling me first. How nice....
But anyway, I can't live with her anymore if she is going to be like that. What a spoiled girl.

On the other hand, I finally will go to Spain for midterm break. Not my first choice of place, but what can I do? Too many things happened and so little time to do everything at once. I have no other choice....and I'm travelling with these kids that sometimes annoy me because they keep asking me about everything but not doing anything by themselves, as if I'm the tour leader. Well, they are still kids, what can I say?

As for internship, I don't even know where I wanted to have it anymore. Currently waiting the response of Marriott New Orleans and Dubai. Just applied to Pan Pacific Singapore, Seattle and Wyndham Xiamen too. I'm still hoping for Marriott though, I always wanted the best one. Or maybe I'm just greedy.


Due to the trip to Spain, I guess I can't celebrate Easter properly. Forgive me, God. I hope we still can go to Church a bit during the week. Hopefully we can have a safe trip.

Winter clock ends today. Less sleep for 1 hour, at least this is weekend. I'm still a bit tired after walking until Chateu de Chillon today...


Will call it a day now.

Day 29: Is in dilemma...

My dearest friend


Maybe that's how I should call this blog from now on, hehehe~

I just started reading Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl last Friday, still continuing now, and I'm still surprised as of why I didn't start reading it sooner. I knew about Anne Frank since I was in junior high school if I;m not mistaken, I remember I found the book, the old version in Sanur's library. I remember opened it and look at some entries, maybe because the book was the old one, I ended up not interested. Funny how now I seemed to be can't be separated from Nazi-themed things. Last winter I visited the Anne Frank house, the Secret Annexe, in Amsterdam. It was pretty much an overwhelming experience. I almost couldn't hold my tears, one visitor even broke down crying. You really can feel how intense it was, how in such a small and comfortable (or maybe quite big but not so comfortable) place a young girl was living there for about two years in fear and also every kind of emotions she has experienced there.

Then after that I visited Auschwitz in Poland with my dearest best buddy the Cool Cat. Perhaps because it wasn't so cold, it was sunny day in winter, it was in the afternoon and Cool Cat promised to kick me if I shed a tear, I wasn't feeling sad at all. Maybe I was bracing myself and forced myself to be strong because I knew it would be another intense feeling trip. Nevertheless, I feel so lucky I'm able to visit one of the most horrible place in the history. God has permit me to arrive here & there safely, has blessed me to understand the horror of Nazi in the past, He allowed me to be safe and to see things by myself. I shouldn't complaining of small things should I?

Even though I said so, I'm still complaining about things in my life now. Well, I'm a human and that how a human is.

Is it?

Or is it just an excuse?


I will change the topic now.

We finally got our F&B admin project's grades. I was so relieved when I saw I got 9.6 for individual grade and 9.5/10 for the whole group. If my individual grade is indeed 9.6, it will be such a great help to boost my exam! I mean, I'm not good at numbers and the exam is full of calculations. I have to worry about this.

As for operations management, I have to say I am very very very satisfied! This is the first time I did a presentation and the audience really enjoyed it, and even laughed so hard. I have to admit this is all thanks to Steven. He was annoying because of his attitudes and curses but he knows how to do the work well, making the PPT in one night, giving ideas for funny clips......I never be able to do that. Now I' worried if I can do marketing well.  Anyway, even Mr. Schofield praised us.

Next week I will have both exam in the same day. God help me, I will study hard so I won't get resits again like last semester. Enough is enough.

Not to mention I just found out I had spent 500 chf until now!!! I think I will just go to Lyon for midterm, makes my life much easier.

I have so many things to write in 1 journal.

Now it's about graduation day. I can't believe this school!! They changed the graduation day from 4th June until before final exam!! What kind of graduation is that?? There's no way we can celebrate our graduation with so much anxiety for exams.....and even resits. What if there's someone who failed??? This is ridiculous. And even sadder is, how ignorant our friends can be. The other day we had a meeting with our program leader to talk about this, but only 1 people came! I understand those who have CBL, it was their last day and they have to prepare everything. But the others??? Simply didn't come, even though they complained about it a lot. Too much money to spend huh?


Another thing: internship

I got rejected from Ritz-Carlton Penha Longa Portugal. I guess it's a good thing. Even though the place, the payment & the accommodation isn't that good, but I want the name! It will look good in my CV later of course! But I have no idea where I want to have my internship now. I'm thinking about a lot of places: Switz, USA, Japan, Canada, Singapore, China.......hmmm......my priority is Switz, USA and Singapore I guess. I would say Canada and Japan would be almost impossible, considering the nature of the Japanese. Besides the RC over there told me they don;t accept internship student when I called. On the other hand, I'm still waiting a reply form RC Boston & Singapore, and also from Kempinski Geneva & Sanya. I need to send more. Massive sending always good at this rate~

Last thing: mid term break

I was thinking to go with Pailin etc for a tour of German, Prague, Austria tour but I;m worried they will call me for interview at the time. So....I guess even though I want to go, I have to cancel it and make another plan. I can just go to Lyon, it's near, and maybe visit Sha in Paris for a moment? Besides, I'm getting worried that Ray has became quite clingy to me. I hope Ruhafzo's fortune telling isn't true. He;s not my type & he has a girlfriend. Not a good idea at all.


..........it;s too long already so I will write about Ron & Felix tomorrow I guess.


I will call this a day and hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day.

Day 28: Not funny, it's snowing again....

My dear, today I started with annoying things


My roomie, who is always stressed these days, left in a hurry, made a lot of noises when preparing herself, and left without making her bed or turning off the bed lamp & desk lamp. Which were attacking my eyes like crazy. God, she's worse than my previous roomie...

And when I finally went out, it was snowing and still snowing until now.

And I was happy we don't have slippery grounds anymore....or should I say we didn't have...


Anyway, today I just got interviewed for the Ritz Carlton company, the Penha Longa in Portugal. Honestly, Portugal isn't even in my interest but I really want Ritz Carlton!!! I'm in love with RC since I started working in Starbucks PPL.....despite it being in a relation with Mariott.

It looks good, yes?

They said it's smaller than the ones in Spain but still looks cozy. I need to ask David more about this. Like I said, my point is not Portugal, it is Ritz Carlton.


But if I got recruited, I have to start in June until December. Then I won't be able to attend Fina's wedding T_______________T
Despite all of that, I have no idea why but I started to feel hopeful and excited. I still have to send some CVs though, who knows.....they probably won't accept me. I wonder what will they see with those general questions, I hope they can see I'm genuine (or should I say gullible nad naive?)


Now that this interview passed....at least I can concentrate with operations management. Hopefully, really hopefully, it will end well....


Pray for me, my dear....

Day 27: @____@

Oh God, I'm really not cut to write in a blog obviously...


ANyway, my life is pretty much....frustrating. Though I'm sure it's because I have time management problem.

I just finished CBL last week, finally finished with all lacking of sleep, super tired days with morning classes to attend (never not attend one, yay!!), and on top of it all....finished with my allergy!!!

Not exactly finished but....at least I won't get in touch with the allergens anymore.

ANd now, I need to focus on projects and internship hunting.

Project wise, both are challenges for me. In operations, some of my group mates are frustrating, especially a certain someone who talks a lot but rarely shows up in meeting. What a pain. Not to mention this project doesn't go to the way it supposed to be...

F&B......this is hard also since it's full of calculations. Oh God.....I think i need to take a math course, I didn't have such a big problem with calculations in high school. $ years without figures sure can make you senile.


As for internship....


Bye bye, Canada. If only you're not so picky in term of students, I will definitely go there.

Bye bye, EU......with the very same reason with Canada, plus why don't you accept Asians???

So...USA? My friend said it'll be easier since we will go through agency but how far we can go I have no idea. Thanks to those "people", my country has a bad image in the states as far as I know. Bah...

And my family will skin my alive if I even try to try Middle East or India or Africa (I'm not interested either).

SO.....final choices??


USA, Japan, China, Taiwan, Singapore......and my own country.


And I don't know what to say anymore.


I need to ask Junesea & Sebastien to send me the CBL pics...


Need to go back now, either to project or bed, The latter is more tempting....



I will call it a day....

Day 26: Why so manyyyy??

Yes, why so many works to do?

Supervision.....we have to prepare for the debate (yuck, debate again!)

RD...I have final so can't really complain about that.

Basic accounting....guh, I barely can do any reviewing right now. Too many things to do!!

F&B.....I was planning to do it tonight but I guess I have to delay it until Thursday night because of contemp issue!!

Contemp issue.....ugh, so many materials to read & understand by heart. Just like NIcolas had said. That guy surely knows a lot....

English....nah, nothing too much to care for now. I already finished like 80 % anyway.

Speaking of contemp issue, I have group study with Snoopy, K, T, Audrey & Liko this afternoon. I feel bad for them since I didn't understand the coca cola case study and I only managed to print the cruise line ppt this morning (I feel like killing those machines!!!). I feel so useless, guilty and like a freeloader since I couldn't say anything much.

But I'm glad we can do group study. I don't think I can manage to read & understand the whole materials by myself, with my stupid brain and what.

Another thing. I got so easily distracted, so pathetic of me. I was too entranced watching the cute scenes in THJ last night and this was what I got today. So I guess this is God's punishment for me. I will do better and be responsible next time...

So yeah....need to book flights to Netherland and Poland too. Plus, counting how much expenses I will get by the end of this year. I don't think I want to see....prices in Montreux are more expensive, I'm worried I'll become much more stingier than now.

But if it's for good, I don't care.

Hectic weeks just started, plus the cold weather.....I hope I can survive and do much better.


Stole this cute gif/pic form lj today, so cute!!! Credit goes to dubulove and whoever created the file~





Now back to study study and studdyyyy!!! I don't want to disappoint them anymore! Feels like a retarded already this afternoon, better do better next time!

Day 25: Rain rain...

It's so cold here lately....I guess it's time to take Mr. Bear out...

Today was pretty tiring at least for me. I woke up almost late, and I guess I really don't have anything to do with them anymore since they didn't knock my door anymore. Not that I care, really.

For RD, finally I got the mark for the project. Got 7.58 in total, so if I have to sum it up with the mid term exam result, I will still get 7 (round it up). Which means I still have to work hard for final. At least we won't have guest accounting anymore. Maybe it'll be better that way, I'm not sure.

As for supervision....I'm still thinking, should I take HR or not? Maybe it's better if I stick with FO? Because today in supervision we have another group learning, discussing...not that it was really bad or sort, I just found that I don't like it that much. I prefer group studying outside the class. As for inside the class, I prefer passive learning like usual. I'm more of a listener than a talker (which finally have to say something anyway since my zhongguo friends are basically voiceless when it comes to group discussion *sigh*).

So far what I have in mind for internship are FO, HR and marketing. The last one would only happen if I can take marketing next semester. And if next semester I can take CBL Housekeeping, I think I prefer that one than services in kitchen & restaurant. I like cooking but with my own space & pace, please. And the option to take internship in Toronto still applied. Last night Nink came to my room to talk about managing events with Phuong. Well, thanks to her & her bf, maybe my second option would be either SK or China. Japan not so appealing to me anymore, thanks to several discussions I had before, and maybe Thailand isn't a bad option either.

I also talked with several PG2 students: Promise, Laura, Hannah.....well, they gave good infos about Glion life.

I feel like I really want to work right now but I still have semester 2 to cover. I think I already reached the age where I prefer to work rather than studying. But the question from the few months back is still the same.

Do I want to work in this industry or not?


Not sure about the answer but yeah.....cover semester 2, internship, then I will think about it. I guess I can make the real decision only after I entered internship.

Maybe I will also take RD Management next semester. Mom & dad doubt HR too anyway.

*sigh*


Exams are near......contemp issue this week.


HWAITING!!!!


Gotta study now, and group study tomorrow...


I'll call it a day now. See you next time!

Day 24: WHAT??

O__________________o



1 month already????


Right. I have been busy with college: reports, projects, presentations and every single stress (plus other things) included in 1 free package from my lovely campus.

At least I have finished most of my projects & presentations. Still have 1 F&B project and 1 english presentation though.

As a result I don't have time to draw pics or write short stories per request by the cool cat. Or should I call her the kluski now? XDD

I have several interesting things to write I think. Just....when is the time? Guh....

Feels so tired physically & mentally.....


First final exam: Contemporary issue in 2 weeks!! JIA YOU!!! FIGHTING!!!!

Day 23: I'm feeling better~

Yea, I'm finally feeling better. After a lot of tears, lonely feelings, walk around the town, routine counseling which still last until now, chatting with parents and e-mails from Ruhafzo...


And finally.....I think I can say I've started a new life as a more independent (and perhaps uncaring?) person.


I don't care anymore if they leave me alone again, like what just happened last week, I don't care anymore if they ignoring me, if they won't talk to me. Whatever. It's their choice and my life. As a result, I'm not crying anymore now. Okay, maybe at times but in general, no. I also feel more free than before. How stupid of me to stick with them all the time, it wasn't worth it. Not with that snobbish girl who doesn't understand that I'm different with her. Or maybe she understands and doesn't like it. The point is, she's ignoring me & make it a very obvious one too.

But I also a lot more closer with my other friends. These days, I feel particularly close with Audrey, Ruhafzo, Gina, Thi, and the last ones are Sherry and KangHo. I even planning to go to eat Korean food together with Sherry and KangHo. Funny, because it was just today I talked a lot with them (and being dorks in general) with them.

But in general, I'm happy I'm close to them. They are different with my last group of friends, I feel more free....but I also need to remind myself to be careful and know my limits, I don't want to repeat those sad feelings again.

And today I have done Rooms Division presentation. They said I did a good job but I actually think I was so nervous and it was quite obvious. Well. I'm happy too, because I've done my 1st presentation with so multi-cultural group members. I finally learned about them and even can talk leisurely with Julian, Inna & Vadim. I thought I will regret this but now I can see it from the bright side. Thank you, God, for giving me this precious opportunity!!!


But at the same time, I got a bad news: I didn't pass my Rooms Division test T_________T I only got 6.3...

I know we still have the presentation mark & the final assessment but still....if I started this bad, I'm getting worried of what will happen afterward. I hope I can be better.


Now, another good news of the day: I got my B permit! Yay!! So I can go to Paris!

Although my interest in going is limited with the fact that I have to go with her & endure a lot of branded shopping....now I'm thinking that maybe I should just go during winter break so that I can stay at Marsha's place? I can use this mid term break as a chance to explore Switzerland. Or go to Ik Yang's place in Netherlands?
I'm still thinking.....

Another bad news now: I have another basic accounting test this Thursday and it'll be hell because I'm already depressed of those depreciation things. Sometimes I wonder why I'm taking this class....

Another good news: program leader said they maybe can do something to my allergy for CBL. And she said I can take a look for the schedule in academic catalog. So....bad news: I probably will finished by 11th Dec the latest. Good news: I will finish next semester by the 4th of June so I can attend Fina's wedding!!!! OMG best news so far!!!!


So for today, I'm generally feeling good after a lot of joking with my adorkable friends~

I'll call it a day now XD

Day 21: I'm.....numb?

At first I was worried.

Then I was annoyed. Really really annoyed.

My group mates are so irresponsible!!!!

Julian did work hard for the interview but he didn't realize our presentation is 2 weeks away....

I have no idea of what to write from that 1 1/4 pages of interview result....and how to make it a 3000 words report none the less.

Russian couple are away God-knows-where and will show up in class at Thursday.

Leaving me & Julian confused and have to work to find some info again.

Sweet.


Am I the only one panicking over the whole thing???

AM I too paranoid??

Maybe my tears are already dried up, strangely I'm not crying at all. Only shed some tears earlier today. I'm really looking forward to meet the student councilor....

Back to topic

I guess I should read some info about the whole RD things....if I'm not mistaken we have to do some analysis over this.

*sigh*


Maybe I should've take art path like my brother, at least I won't get frustrated over irresponsible group members and counting counting counting...


On the bright side, I got some info from Audrey about the prices of jackets here, plus cream for winter. Let's see if it'll work. Thanks, Audrey!! Get well soon!!

And poor Phuong....her request to get internship 1st got rejected!! They are so weird, she clearly stated that she has some financial problems and can't pay for the 2nd semester without working & they still insist her to finish 2nd semester 1st without giving advice or alternatives for her problems???


I...


I honestly don't know what to write or think right now...


I think I already gone numb about the whole thing...


I'm pretty sure I'll freak out again when the time is come



I'll call it a day now I guess.....

Day 20 : Why?

Whenever I wrote I don;t understand myself, I seriously mean it.

Because I don't understand why I'm so emo at nights here. Even now.

Even now, where I was happily chatting with my brother & parents before dinner. Where I was laughing --not literally-- of my own silliness, forgot to set the alarm clock and thus, woke up late and missed the morning messe. As a result I have to skip brunch and ate mi gelas, oatmilk and a few bites of waffle for lunch.

If this is what will always happen to me at nights, I don't know what will happen when winter actually comes. When there will be more nights than days.

And btw, this is also the 1st time I really want to skip a class. Really desperate to skip a class.

Why???


I don't understand. Do I hate that class that much? I know it's boring and such but I never wanted to skip a boring class, at least this much, before.

And at the same time I'm also worried about Rooms Division report. I know I'm paranoid but I'm really worried we won't make it. Especially since I have no idea of what to write for a 3000 words report with the interview result is so short, albeit quite descriptive and interesting. Should I include a history of Rooms Division in general and the hotel itself?

If that's the case, I guess I really should skip the class tomorrow. I'm sucks at research and writing reports, I always need a long time to do those so I better prepare myself. I can ask the others what the class will be about, and I'll catch up with their help.


In the mean time, I will try my best to figure out the reason of my insecurities, fear and whatever problems I have. Maybe I'll do a rosary prayer tonight, just to calm myself down (and I hope it'll really help me to calm down).


Right now I feel like there's something gripped my insides....what is it, I have no idea. I don't even have any idea of what that "insides" is....my heart? My feelings? I really really have no idea.


Why is life so difficult?

Why I always feel the time is too short?

When I can grow up?



I....don't even feel like closing the day at this rate.


Simply because I don't know and don't understand what's happening here, with me.


But I'll try to call it a day now, and hope it'll be better day by day.

Day 13: *sigh* My complaints....

......definitely not a good news...


Yesterday there were suicide bombings. AGAIN. Jesus, I don't even understand why did they do that....

Yesterday morning there were 2 bombs exploded at JW Mariott hotel and Ritz-Carlton hotel at Mega Kuningan. Actually there is another bomb found but the I think they have managed to stop it explode. The first one, at Mariott, exploded at 7.45 AM and the RC one at 7.47 AM, according to the news. Both were exploded during opening hour, where the workers were preparing things to welcome the guests, and the guests themselves were having breakfasts or just arrived at the places.

Most people think that this is Jamaah Islamiyah doings again. Of course there is no evidence so far, the JI itself is still silent up till now and not bragging about it like before, but the JI is the main suspect for now.

According to the news (MetroTV, Yahoo news, etc), there are 9 killed and about 53 people injured heavily and lightly. This is the second bombing happened to Mariott, it happened a few years before and killed more than yesterday's one. Among the current victims, there are some foreigners, all are important people who have high positions at their companies. Mariott is one of the most favorite places in Jakarta to held important meetings and it's also a branhc of Mariott in the States. As JI is, if Im not mistake, has quite big ill-feelings toward "America-related", no doubt they are the ones behind the scenes and no wonder people suspect them being the responsible ones.

I've read today's Kompas this noon, and there are at least 2 people who got injured physically and mentally because they are also the victims of the previous Mariott bombing. Poor them, they are scarred and traumatized. I'm really worried, it must have affected them so much. I honestly don't understand why the bombers, whoever they are, have to resort to go this extreme path....

Let's just say it is really JI who is responsible......their hatred of "western things" and how they applied their hatred in practice only make the situation worse for them. Not only rising negative thoughts of Indonesia's image, it's also affecting the Moslem's image as well. These days, ignorant people who rarely in contact with Moslems think that all Moslems are militants, evil, etc etc. On the other hand, some Moslems also think that Christians are barbarians (especially since Christians are allowed to drink alcoholic beverages). Oh lookie here, now we have a war based on religions and beliefs....

"Moslems are evil beings"....obviously not true. I'm Catholic, I've been raised by my family which consists of devoted Ctaholic/Christian/Confucian believers. However, being raised in Indonesia, who has the largest Moslem community in the world, is really helpful to show me that they are not evil.

"Christians are barbarians".....now this one, which I read last year during my thesis writing, I have to admit it really makes me pissed. Not surprising of course since I'm a Catholic myself. And by the way, the writer wrote it mainly because "westerners are violent and they drink a lot, that's why they are violent" sentence. Does it make any sense? Maybe yes, but it doesn't applied to ALL westerners (who ignorants usually think as Christians).

Anyway, back about the bombings.

Yesterday facebook was full of condolences and sympathy of the tragedy. However, some people chose to be heartless smartasses....

One of my junior for example. She wrote in her caption wall that it's better if they bomb the poor people so that Indonesia will has less of them and will give the image for foreigners, especially the Manchester United football team that supposed to came for a friendly match with our local teams.

.....I REALLY PISSED OFF, DISSAPOINTED, DISGUSTED.....whatever the words but yeah, that's my feelings even now.

So she thought it was a good joke huh? To wrote things like that? To laugh at the poor people? To wish for their death just to make a good name? How is it will give our country a good name? Really, I'm so pissed I can't even write my feelings properly in this journal.
One thing she doesn't know: my college mate's cousin is one of the victim of the bombings. I don't know if the cousin died or not (JESUS, PLEASE NO) but if my friend read it, I don't now what her feeling would be. And I told this to that insolent junior, told her that there is someone I know injured of it, and she apologized, said that she was "drunk" when she wrote it.

Read this girl:

I DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF DRUNK YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT BUT YOU ARE A MOSLEM GIRL. MOSLEMS AREN'T ALLOWED TO DRINK. WHATEVER YOUR REASON WAS, IT WON'T CHANGE YOUR INSOLENCE AND WHAT I'M FEELING NOW ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!

And if she was "drunk" because she has problems with thesis, I really don't want to sympathize her. She is one of the main reasons why I don't have any respect AT ALL toward my juniors. They have never been a good example for their juniors and never done good things that will change their seniors' views of them. Period.

As for the Manchester United team....yeah, I can understand why people dissapointed with the situation. The team has canceled the schedule to come for some friendly matches with Indonesia, Malaysia, and 2 other countries I forgot which ones (I'm sorry...). It is a super bad news for the team's fans and for our local teams as well. It is a once in a life time's chance to play with one of the most famous teams in the whole world.

But the reason of the cancellation is understandable right? They supposed to stay at the Ritz-Carlton today but there was the bomb. Which is very fortunate for my view. It's definitely much better if they canceled it. And imagine what will happen if the bomb explodes when the team members are already in the hotel. MU has a history of bombing too. At 1954 or so, the plane the team were using had exploded before it can fly, killing 8 team members. It was a dark history of MU, one that also raised the team's name (more out of sympathy) which just got some outstanding members, the irony is....so heartbreaking.

Anyway, I really don't appreciate any jokes of the bombings. It's not something we can joke about, with so many people died and injured.


And that's my number one complain. There are still....some more, I don't know how many @____________@

Well, the second complain....not exactly a complain actually. My friends and I are supposed to hold a party today, for my farewell and to celebrate 4 of my friends' graduation. But I've decided to cancel it due to safety reasons. Besides, as I have mentioned above, one of friend's cousin got injured too. It's better not to celebrate anything in this sad situation. I'm feeling guilty already...


Third complaint? Hm, this is actually an old issue....but I only can bring myself to write it down now. Mainly because I'm busy and stressed, enough to make me too tired to write anything.

It's about my insolent juniors. Yes, like that "drunk" girl I've mentioned above. It's actually about her and her friends.

Let's start with said "drunk girl". I' don't want to say her name so I'll mention her as M instead.

M currently is writing her graduation thesis. She chose the theme of bushido combined with chan before. But now, due to smoe weird reasons came from her lecturer, she has to changed it (and so she did). I don't know her current theme. Anyway, when she was still in the bushido/chan theme, I helped her a bit since she seemed doesn't understand some parts.
Things started to get annoying a few months after that. And the reason is?

None other than the most famous Korean drama, Boys Before Flowers. Or Kkotboda Namja in Korean.

I'll be honest, I'm biased about this drama. It's an adaptation of a manga Hana Yori Dango, which had made quite a ruckus in Indonesia when the Taiwan movie version Metero Garden was aired a few years ago. I really dislike this drama, whichever version it is. I detest bullying, mainly because I myself got bullied mentally when I was little by an annoying-snobbish-rich girl classmate of mine.

So that M was all of a sudden busy spazzing over the drama, spent her time watching it over and over again, neglecting the thesis. Her status in facebook were all about the drama, and her friends have responded in the similar spazzing manners.

In the end, she was all panicking about the thesis, which was not going to make it on time. But when I asked her about it, she simply said she'll go through another semester to finish it.

I'm a kind of a girl who is taking work and responsibilities seriously. Ask my friends, they know about it very well. And so, that kind of attitude only makes me more and more annoyed with her. She was spazzing over the drama for some times, occasionally complained she didn't have money too. It was so dissapointing to the point I sarcastically teased her once, saying that if she has the money to buy pirated DVDs, she should do something better with them. Like, paying for thesis printing or something. Her reply? She said she was collecting the money to pay the for the next semester.


OH MY GOD THE NERVE OF THIS GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And apparently she is not the only one like that.


4 of my friends, who graduated late because they got scholarships for exchange students, told me this. Among about some 40 students that are writing graduation thesis, half of them decided to take another semester. WHILE THEY ACTUALLY STILL HAVE ABOUT 2 MONTHS TO FINISH IT.

I can't be more disappointed. they think 2 months time aren't enough to finish it? I'VE FINISHED MY THESIS IN 2 MONTHS TIME!!! MAYBE LESS!! And my best friend has finished it in less than a month. A MONTH!!!!
They are just lazy-asses!!! No better word to describe! I hope at least some of them actually have at least a proper reason, like caught an illness or something....

And there is another one similar to M girl. Let's call her N now. She never came to see the lecturer to discuss about her thesis, She only came once, at the very start of the last semester and then appeared again only a week before her exam!! When one of the "killer"faculty scolded her for that, she reasoned she was ill. But to the lecturer responsible in guiding her, she admitted that she was afraid of her and that was why she never came.

......I really don't have any word to describe how ridiculous I found the whole thing.

That lecturer is 8 months pregnant!! She is pregnant, still teaching in class, still teaching in at another campus, going back and forth here and there, and she still want to help the linguistic students who ahve to come to her since one of the linguistic lecturer has to go to Japan. COME ONE GIRL, WHAT IS IT YOU'RE AFRAID OF A PREGNANT WOMAN???

Sensei, I really admire and respect you for your kind heart and patience. I honestly ashamed of such a junior. You're still taking care of them while you're with a child, I hope you will give birth safely to a healthy child. God bless you, sensei...

When finally it was the exam day for N, which was the same day as 3 of my friends, she came late. SHE CAME LATE. She was so lucky my friend's exam was delayed due to some reasons, else N will be grilled alive by the examiners.

And she was almost grilled alive indeed. Not only she came late, she also hasn't gave that pregnant lecturer her complete thesis, which was supposed to be given to her at least a week before the D Day, ans she hasn't go yoroshiku yet!!! Tsk, that was the best suicide moment...

(Note: yoroshiku is a Japanese term, which usually translated as "pleased to meet you" or "I will need your help from now on" or something similar like that. It is a humble word to show you are respecting other people. In this thesis writing case, it means showing respect to your examiners like saying "You'll be my examiner, please help me a lot so I can have confidence and can graduate")

Since she was in hiatus for a long time, she didn't even know they have to use their own laptops for presentation. In the end, she borrowed my friend's, which made us have to wait until she finished her exam. My friend and I was chatting for a long time of how ridiculous and annoying the situation that occurred at the time.

Another thing I found weird that day: only a very small number of her classmates were there to accompany the juniors who have exams taht day.

Last year when I have my own exam, almost all of our friends came. We were supporting each other by showing up at every exams except the day before our own exam and if one have some unavoidable problems. This year, there were only a few juniors, not even 10 people. My friends and I questioned it too. I wonder if their friendships are so....well, not in a good term or something (for the lack of a better word), that they were wondered off on their own businesses, or they probably were in panic because their own thesis haven't finished yet.

I honestly don't care.

They have showed how much insolent, rude and arrogant they are from the very first time they stepped in our major, I myself was a victim once.


And now, my last complain.

My last problem actually. My emotion has been up and down these days. I often can't sleep at nights, either I'm nervous and afraid, or too excited. I will depart to Switzerland next Friday, and I found out that I actually have to go ALONE. I thought I will have some friends because Allentine said she went with some friends. Turned out there are only 2 PGD students for Glion this semester and Iriana, the other PGD student, will depart a day after me from Singapore. Whew...

That, and I'm nervous of my english. I haven't spoke in a long proper english sentence for a long time, I hope I can manage there. No, I actually know I can manage. I know my english is quite good, I'm not trying to be vain here, it's a fact! And since Iriana was educated abroad since young, and she is from Management major, I'm sure she will help me a lot! Yoroshiku, Iriana!!!

Christ, please protect me and give me confidence! Help me to go through all of this....




I don't have anything to complain anymore I guess. That was a lot of writings in a day!! I actually feel better today. I've managed to bake 2 batches of brownies after a long time I didn't~

My source for the bombing news came from various media: Yahoo!News, Kompas, MetroTv, TransTV, a celebrity gossip show in TV (ridiculous but it's true), etc....credits go to all of them!!



I'll call it a day now.

Day 7: chatting, friend, birthday

It's been a long time....


So yeah, every time I want to write something here, there were always some things up.....from the silliest to funniest I even forgot already what those were.
Sometimes I think I'm scatterbrain that way....

Anyway today is my birthday, I'm officially older (not that I'm not old XD) but I'm happy! Last night right at 00:00, my family came to my room with a chocolate cake & candles. My room smelt like burnt candles for a while but at least we ate the cake outside. But actually I was chatting with my cousin at the time. She's getting married next year and asked me to help her choose a gown from the designs she had chose herself. A hard task since they are all sooo pretty!!!

It seems that she has a problem choosing gown because of her soon-to-be mother-in-law. She prefers something simple yet elegant while her mother-in-law wants something....hmmm.....how to put it....elegant & luxurious I guess. I prefer her style though, I never liked too luxurious dresses. I sometimes wonder when I will tie the knot too, hahahaha~ obviously will take a long long time since I'm still happily single right now :P

Another problem is she's planning to get married by next summer & I don't know if I can make it to be her bridemaid since it's the time for my internship. I'm not exactly sure, but obviously it'll start at summer break as usual internship would do. I hope I can make it, I really want to see her in her wedding dress~


Back to birthday topic.....I got a lot of love from my facebook friends today XDD I've replied almost all of them one by one. Sounds crazy? Not for me. I wnat to appreciate all of them. Besides, I'm kinda free. Kinda.

And tonight I got another surprise: my good ol' friend Ochol added my MSN and we suddenly chat a lot about the old days and now XDD Funny how happy I am with such a simple thing. Maybe this is because I missed my old friends & he was one of the closest friends I've got when I was little.....only if you put aside his pranks. Agh....
But he's funny as ever XD some things never change I see, and I'm grateful for that.
Btw we are still chatting now but he is being brb to take a bath~

The next time they held primary school reunion again, they have to invite me!


As for now, as I write this entry, I'm also reading the 2009-2010 catalogue of GIHE, my soon-to-be school in Switzerland. I'm trying to choose which subject I will take. I think this catalogue is a bit different from last year's. I've noticed there are less subjects to take for PG students, which actually is advantageous for me, I was confused for a while of which subject to take. I only have minimum 36 credits but there are much more credits I have to take, just because there are a lot of subjects I wanted to take. With less subjects available, it's easier for me to choose.

I hope I won't fail any class. The school fee is expensive, VERY, so I have to do my best. JIA YOU!!


Speaking of studying, I think I want to complain about laoshi again. Once again I said she's too demanding!!! And she forgot which part I have to learn & memorize, so what I has studied last night was almost, ALMOST ALL, useless. Hhh......but what exactly I can say? She's not a young woman, she's my mom's age. If she's forgetful, then it's the work of nature, and she's an elder to me so I can't get angry no matter how annoyed I was.

Well, not exactly :P

I did protest at her. She gave me too much zuo ye!!! Writing a letter, making 13 zhao ju, memorizing about 35 vocabs (and what I've memorized are the ke wen), plus memorizing a short poetry by Li Bai!!! Huh, I was up until 3 AM just because memorizing the ke wen.....granted taht I love Li Bai's poetries but still....
Then during class today what she told me to do convo with were the previous ke wen....argh!!!!

And like I said, I can't do anything about it.

If I tell this to ShinyIslandMan, she probably will scold me again for being so passive & "too polite to someone who take advantage of you". Uh-huh, I know that. But it' smy nature & it's a habit that hard to change.

I'm glad I've decided to write a blog, I really need a place to let out all feelings kept within this heart-mind-soul that I couldn't let out.




I'll call it a day for now~

Day 2: fish, chicken, oatmeal

Good day.....(just a greeting)


Today I woke up at 10 AM.......two hours late from my original plan T_____T

It wasn;t exactly my fault. I slept at 3 AM because my friend Siska has poked me in MSN and it's been a long time since I talked with her. Besides, the content of our convo was interesting. VERY interesting.

I never expected one of the hotel school in Switzerland could be so....low-maintained or whatever good word I should put inside. She said she got bitten by insects (read: kutu kayu/kutu busuk) and the school wasn't taking care of the problem seriously! Some students already reported the case before but they did not get any response. At least now the school is taking care of it.....after they reported to the Headmaster. When Siska check her itchy bumps (yg 1 infeksi pula) to the school nurse, she (or he) insisted that it wan't because of the kutu. How irresponsible of them in handling the students' care & well-being.

The moral of the case: studying abroad isn't that cool.

Anyway


I went to Fish Spa with mom, gonggong and yiyi this noon. Fish spa....sounds weird but it's true. They said the fish eat our skins (baca: kulit ari) and it will make our skin healthier, with less unneeded skin.

(You know what I mean but I'm trying hard to write journals in english)

The moment we sat down in the fish tank, the fishes immediately attacked gonggong's feet. Wow, his feet must be very tasty and have lots of fish food. Mom, on the other hand, barely got any fish visiting her feet because she often scrubs her feet during bath time. Yiyi got some fishes too...........and it took a long time for the fishes to come to me, maybe because my skin is dry and chapped (yah pokonya kering lah) so the fishes have to wait until it soften.

If you ask me how it feels like.......well, i feel kesemutan. Whatever the word in english XDD


Ok, ticklish and kesemutan (still whatever the english word is). It was ticklish at first sinc ethere were only 2 or 3 fishes came to me but after yiyi out of the tank, I got more. About 6 perhaps.
Then after gonggong out of the tank??

O.O fully kesemutan I'd say.....

They were attacking me aalmost as soon as gonggong out!!!! Wow, it was a bit scary sight to see (fishes eat your feet??)
At least I'm assured that dead people in the sea.........ehm......well.........I'll censore what was I going to say. Yeah.

Btw after that we went to eat with another yiyi......and she brought her armies: her daughters, her grandchildren, and the baby sitter. I wasn't surprise anymore, it's nothing new.

Mom said my biaomei looks old with the glasses she was wearing. I'm not sure if it's true or not. She's always extrovert and stylish and daring compared to me.

Back to the topic.......I can't believe such a nice and comfy restaurant can forgot a customer's request. They really forgot my chicken katsu!!! I was left sms-ing with Ci Clif talking about Siska and Ade for a while before my biaojie decide to ask about my order. And when it arrived, it only has small prtion of grated carrot. And they wrote "with salad" in the menu. The only thing good was the kefir, the yoghurt like drink. It was very sour, exactly what I wanted.



Please, Solaria is much better than this (and with the same price too!)........


As for dinner, I was too lazy to cook so I've decided I'll just have oatmeal eaten with leftover veggie soup. The latter was my mom's suggestion since I didn't have any idea what to eat with the oatmeal and I can't eat it plain.
But when I opened the oatmeal package, I found there were things like........sticky things. Like kutu beras that left some sticky things to the rice or Japanese natto (hey, no bad feelings for the natto, they are quite tasty for me anyway). Mom said it's bad already so......bye bye my oatmeal dinner! (sigh)

In the end I have to cook my favorite dish, beef kailan, with mom. That's better than having nothing to eat. Hhhh....


So many things can happen in a day, yeah? Now I hope I'll remember to bring my camera the next time we go to Fish spa again....if there is a next time....


Now let's call it a day.....