Day 30: Disappointed

My dear, I really need to train myself to update things regularly.


As usual since it's been a long time I'm not updating, there are a lot of things I need to share.

Graduation day. Now this is a big problem to every PG students here. The Board has changed the date and make our graduation day at 21st May!!! How ridiculous is that??? Graduation day before final exam?? Did they not think about the possibility of someone failed? What about resits & retake?! Besides, what kind of fun is that when they hold something like this before the horror of exam....

Worse, I told my parents about this this afternoon. And they said they probably won't come because there is no reason for visiting anymore. Oh Jesus I really want to go to Vatican together with my family!! This is a once in a life time opportunity, why did it end up like this??? They seriously not thinking about us who live far away from Switz, how nice is that!!! They did not even listen to us when some of us decided to discuss about this with oh our so lovely program leader, whom we can not trust anymore.

Case number two, I finally got my F&B Admin grade, which I have totally butchered up during final exam. I wonder if I should take a math course or something, surely the problem is not about I'm bad at calculation. I mean, I did that a lot during high school and even without calculator!!! 4 years of no calculations in university has somewhat ruined my skills I guess. Anyway, thanks to my project grade & the fact that they made it 60% project & 40% final exam, I still can pass. OMG my exam grade is horrible, thank God I got a great team ...

Case number three. My roomie is being impossible again. I know I complain a lot about her being too noisy & too focused on herself, that's why I always stay in the library until late these days, so she can call anyone she wants to, can listen to music as loud as she wants to, can invite some friends to the room.......and now she said she can't be my roomie anymore because I'm too QUIET to her liking. She said she frustrated because of that. Why is she so weird?? I gave her her space already and now she wants to kick me out of the room. She even asked the Student Affair already without telling me first. How nice....
But anyway, I can't live with her anymore if she is going to be like that. What a spoiled girl.

On the other hand, I finally will go to Spain for midterm break. Not my first choice of place, but what can I do? Too many things happened and so little time to do everything at once. I have no other choice....and I'm travelling with these kids that sometimes annoy me because they keep asking me about everything but not doing anything by themselves, as if I'm the tour leader. Well, they are still kids, what can I say?

As for internship, I don't even know where I wanted to have it anymore. Currently waiting the response of Marriott New Orleans and Dubai. Just applied to Pan Pacific Singapore, Seattle and Wyndham Xiamen too. I'm still hoping for Marriott though, I always wanted the best one. Or maybe I'm just greedy.


Due to the trip to Spain, I guess I can't celebrate Easter properly. Forgive me, God. I hope we still can go to Church a bit during the week. Hopefully we can have a safe trip.

Winter clock ends today. Less sleep for 1 hour, at least this is weekend. I'm still a bit tired after walking until Chateu de Chillon today...


Will call it a day now.

Day 29: Is in dilemma...

My dearest friend


Maybe that's how I should call this blog from now on, hehehe~

I just started reading Anne Frank, Diary of a Young Girl last Friday, still continuing now, and I'm still surprised as of why I didn't start reading it sooner. I knew about Anne Frank since I was in junior high school if I;m not mistaken, I remember I found the book, the old version in Sanur's library. I remember opened it and look at some entries, maybe because the book was the old one, I ended up not interested. Funny how now I seemed to be can't be separated from Nazi-themed things. Last winter I visited the Anne Frank house, the Secret Annexe, in Amsterdam. It was pretty much an overwhelming experience. I almost couldn't hold my tears, one visitor even broke down crying. You really can feel how intense it was, how in such a small and comfortable (or maybe quite big but not so comfortable) place a young girl was living there for about two years in fear and also every kind of emotions she has experienced there.

Then after that I visited Auschwitz in Poland with my dearest best buddy the Cool Cat. Perhaps because it wasn't so cold, it was sunny day in winter, it was in the afternoon and Cool Cat promised to kick me if I shed a tear, I wasn't feeling sad at all. Maybe I was bracing myself and forced myself to be strong because I knew it would be another intense feeling trip. Nevertheless, I feel so lucky I'm able to visit one of the most horrible place in the history. God has permit me to arrive here & there safely, has blessed me to understand the horror of Nazi in the past, He allowed me to be safe and to see things by myself. I shouldn't complaining of small things should I?

Even though I said so, I'm still complaining about things in my life now. Well, I'm a human and that how a human is.

Is it?

Or is it just an excuse?


I will change the topic now.

We finally got our F&B admin project's grades. I was so relieved when I saw I got 9.6 for individual grade and 9.5/10 for the whole group. If my individual grade is indeed 9.6, it will be such a great help to boost my exam! I mean, I'm not good at numbers and the exam is full of calculations. I have to worry about this.

As for operations management, I have to say I am very very very satisfied! This is the first time I did a presentation and the audience really enjoyed it, and even laughed so hard. I have to admit this is all thanks to Steven. He was annoying because of his attitudes and curses but he knows how to do the work well, making the PPT in one night, giving ideas for funny clips......I never be able to do that. Now I' worried if I can do marketing well.  Anyway, even Mr. Schofield praised us.

Next week I will have both exam in the same day. God help me, I will study hard so I won't get resits again like last semester. Enough is enough.

Not to mention I just found out I had spent 500 chf until now!!! I think I will just go to Lyon for midterm, makes my life much easier.

I have so many things to write in 1 journal.

Now it's about graduation day. I can't believe this school!! They changed the graduation day from 4th June until before final exam!! What kind of graduation is that?? There's no way we can celebrate our graduation with so much anxiety for exams.....and even resits. What if there's someone who failed??? This is ridiculous. And even sadder is, how ignorant our friends can be. The other day we had a meeting with our program leader to talk about this, but only 1 people came! I understand those who have CBL, it was their last day and they have to prepare everything. But the others??? Simply didn't come, even though they complained about it a lot. Too much money to spend huh?


Another thing: internship

I got rejected from Ritz-Carlton Penha Longa Portugal. I guess it's a good thing. Even though the place, the payment & the accommodation isn't that good, but I want the name! It will look good in my CV later of course! But I have no idea where I want to have my internship now. I'm thinking about a lot of places: Switz, USA, Japan, Canada, Singapore, China.......hmmm......my priority is Switz, USA and Singapore I guess. I would say Canada and Japan would be almost impossible, considering the nature of the Japanese. Besides the RC over there told me they don;t accept internship student when I called. On the other hand, I'm still waiting a reply form RC Boston & Singapore, and also from Kempinski Geneva & Sanya. I need to send more. Massive sending always good at this rate~

Last thing: mid term break

I was thinking to go with Pailin etc for a tour of German, Prague, Austria tour but I;m worried they will call me for interview at the time. So....I guess even though I want to go, I have to cancel it and make another plan. I can just go to Lyon, it's near, and maybe visit Sha in Paris for a moment? Besides, I'm getting worried that Ray has became quite clingy to me. I hope Ruhafzo's fortune telling isn't true. He;s not my type & he has a girlfriend. Not a good idea at all.


..........it;s too long already so I will write about Ron & Felix tomorrow I guess.


I will call this a day and hopefully tomorrow will be a much better day.

Day 23: I'm feeling better~

Yea, I'm finally feeling better. After a lot of tears, lonely feelings, walk around the town, routine counseling which still last until now, chatting with parents and e-mails from Ruhafzo...


And finally.....I think I can say I've started a new life as a more independent (and perhaps uncaring?) person.


I don't care anymore if they leave me alone again, like what just happened last week, I don't care anymore if they ignoring me, if they won't talk to me. Whatever. It's their choice and my life. As a result, I'm not crying anymore now. Okay, maybe at times but in general, no. I also feel more free than before. How stupid of me to stick with them all the time, it wasn't worth it. Not with that snobbish girl who doesn't understand that I'm different with her. Or maybe she understands and doesn't like it. The point is, she's ignoring me & make it a very obvious one too.

But I also a lot more closer with my other friends. These days, I feel particularly close with Audrey, Ruhafzo, Gina, Thi, and the last ones are Sherry and KangHo. I even planning to go to eat Korean food together with Sherry and KangHo. Funny, because it was just today I talked a lot with them (and being dorks in general) with them.

But in general, I'm happy I'm close to them. They are different with my last group of friends, I feel more free....but I also need to remind myself to be careful and know my limits, I don't want to repeat those sad feelings again.

And today I have done Rooms Division presentation. They said I did a good job but I actually think I was so nervous and it was quite obvious. Well. I'm happy too, because I've done my 1st presentation with so multi-cultural group members. I finally learned about them and even can talk leisurely with Julian, Inna & Vadim. I thought I will regret this but now I can see it from the bright side. Thank you, God, for giving me this precious opportunity!!!


But at the same time, I got a bad news: I didn't pass my Rooms Division test T_________T I only got 6.3...

I know we still have the presentation mark & the final assessment but still....if I started this bad, I'm getting worried of what will happen afterward. I hope I can be better.


Now, another good news of the day: I got my B permit! Yay!! So I can go to Paris!

Although my interest in going is limited with the fact that I have to go with her & endure a lot of branded shopping....now I'm thinking that maybe I should just go during winter break so that I can stay at Marsha's place? I can use this mid term break as a chance to explore Switzerland. Or go to Ik Yang's place in Netherlands?
I'm still thinking.....

Another bad news now: I have another basic accounting test this Thursday and it'll be hell because I'm already depressed of those depreciation things. Sometimes I wonder why I'm taking this class....

Another good news: program leader said they maybe can do something to my allergy for CBL. And she said I can take a look for the schedule in academic catalog. So....bad news: I probably will finished by 11th Dec the latest. Good news: I will finish next semester by the 4th of June so I can attend Fina's wedding!!!! OMG best news so far!!!!


So for today, I'm generally feeling good after a lot of joking with my adorkable friends~

I'll call it a day now XD