Day 13: *sigh* My complaints....

......definitely not a good news...


Yesterday there were suicide bombings. AGAIN. Jesus, I don't even understand why did they do that....

Yesterday morning there were 2 bombs exploded at JW Mariott hotel and Ritz-Carlton hotel at Mega Kuningan. Actually there is another bomb found but the I think they have managed to stop it explode. The first one, at Mariott, exploded at 7.45 AM and the RC one at 7.47 AM, according to the news. Both were exploded during opening hour, where the workers were preparing things to welcome the guests, and the guests themselves were having breakfasts or just arrived at the places.

Most people think that this is Jamaah Islamiyah doings again. Of course there is no evidence so far, the JI itself is still silent up till now and not bragging about it like before, but the JI is the main suspect for now.

According to the news (MetroTV, Yahoo news, etc), there are 9 killed and about 53 people injured heavily and lightly. This is the second bombing happened to Mariott, it happened a few years before and killed more than yesterday's one. Among the current victims, there are some foreigners, all are important people who have high positions at their companies. Mariott is one of the most favorite places in Jakarta to held important meetings and it's also a branhc of Mariott in the States. As JI is, if Im not mistake, has quite big ill-feelings toward "America-related", no doubt they are the ones behind the scenes and no wonder people suspect them being the responsible ones.

I've read today's Kompas this noon, and there are at least 2 people who got injured physically and mentally because they are also the victims of the previous Mariott bombing. Poor them, they are scarred and traumatized. I'm really worried, it must have affected them so much. I honestly don't understand why the bombers, whoever they are, have to resort to go this extreme path....

Let's just say it is really JI who is responsible......their hatred of "western things" and how they applied their hatred in practice only make the situation worse for them. Not only rising negative thoughts of Indonesia's image, it's also affecting the Moslem's image as well. These days, ignorant people who rarely in contact with Moslems think that all Moslems are militants, evil, etc etc. On the other hand, some Moslems also think that Christians are barbarians (especially since Christians are allowed to drink alcoholic beverages). Oh lookie here, now we have a war based on religions and beliefs....

"Moslems are evil beings"....obviously not true. I'm Catholic, I've been raised by my family which consists of devoted Ctaholic/Christian/Confucian believers. However, being raised in Indonesia, who has the largest Moslem community in the world, is really helpful to show me that they are not evil.

"Christians are barbarians".....now this one, which I read last year during my thesis writing, I have to admit it really makes me pissed. Not surprising of course since I'm a Catholic myself. And by the way, the writer wrote it mainly because "westerners are violent and they drink a lot, that's why they are violent" sentence. Does it make any sense? Maybe yes, but it doesn't applied to ALL westerners (who ignorants usually think as Christians).

Anyway, back about the bombings.

Yesterday facebook was full of condolences and sympathy of the tragedy. However, some people chose to be heartless smartasses....

One of my junior for example. She wrote in her caption wall that it's better if they bomb the poor people so that Indonesia will has less of them and will give the image for foreigners, especially the Manchester United football team that supposed to came for a friendly match with our local teams.

.....I REALLY PISSED OFF, DISSAPOINTED, DISGUSTED.....whatever the words but yeah, that's my feelings even now.

So she thought it was a good joke huh? To wrote things like that? To laugh at the poor people? To wish for their death just to make a good name? How is it will give our country a good name? Really, I'm so pissed I can't even write my feelings properly in this journal.
One thing she doesn't know: my college mate's cousin is one of the victim of the bombings. I don't know if the cousin died or not (JESUS, PLEASE NO) but if my friend read it, I don't now what her feeling would be. And I told this to that insolent junior, told her that there is someone I know injured of it, and she apologized, said that she was "drunk" when she wrote it.

Read this girl:

I DON'T KNOW WHAT KIND OF DRUNK YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT BUT YOU ARE A MOSLEM GIRL. MOSLEMS AREN'T ALLOWED TO DRINK. WHATEVER YOUR REASON WAS, IT WON'T CHANGE YOUR INSOLENCE AND WHAT I'M FEELING NOW ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!

And if she was "drunk" because she has problems with thesis, I really don't want to sympathize her. She is one of the main reasons why I don't have any respect AT ALL toward my juniors. They have never been a good example for their juniors and never done good things that will change their seniors' views of them. Period.

As for the Manchester United team....yeah, I can understand why people dissapointed with the situation. The team has canceled the schedule to come for some friendly matches with Indonesia, Malaysia, and 2 other countries I forgot which ones (I'm sorry...). It is a super bad news for the team's fans and for our local teams as well. It is a once in a life time's chance to play with one of the most famous teams in the whole world.

But the reason of the cancellation is understandable right? They supposed to stay at the Ritz-Carlton today but there was the bomb. Which is very fortunate for my view. It's definitely much better if they canceled it. And imagine what will happen if the bomb explodes when the team members are already in the hotel. MU has a history of bombing too. At 1954 or so, the plane the team were using had exploded before it can fly, killing 8 team members. It was a dark history of MU, one that also raised the team's name (more out of sympathy) which just got some outstanding members, the irony is....so heartbreaking.

Anyway, I really don't appreciate any jokes of the bombings. It's not something we can joke about, with so many people died and injured.


And that's my number one complain. There are still....some more, I don't know how many @____________@

Well, the second complain....not exactly a complain actually. My friends and I are supposed to hold a party today, for my farewell and to celebrate 4 of my friends' graduation. But I've decided to cancel it due to safety reasons. Besides, as I have mentioned above, one of friend's cousin got injured too. It's better not to celebrate anything in this sad situation. I'm feeling guilty already...


Third complaint? Hm, this is actually an old issue....but I only can bring myself to write it down now. Mainly because I'm busy and stressed, enough to make me too tired to write anything.

It's about my insolent juniors. Yes, like that "drunk" girl I've mentioned above. It's actually about her and her friends.

Let's start with said "drunk girl". I' don't want to say her name so I'll mention her as M instead.

M currently is writing her graduation thesis. She chose the theme of bushido combined with chan before. But now, due to smoe weird reasons came from her lecturer, she has to changed it (and so she did). I don't know her current theme. Anyway, when she was still in the bushido/chan theme, I helped her a bit since she seemed doesn't understand some parts.
Things started to get annoying a few months after that. And the reason is?

None other than the most famous Korean drama, Boys Before Flowers. Or Kkotboda Namja in Korean.

I'll be honest, I'm biased about this drama. It's an adaptation of a manga Hana Yori Dango, which had made quite a ruckus in Indonesia when the Taiwan movie version Metero Garden was aired a few years ago. I really dislike this drama, whichever version it is. I detest bullying, mainly because I myself got bullied mentally when I was little by an annoying-snobbish-rich girl classmate of mine.

So that M was all of a sudden busy spazzing over the drama, spent her time watching it over and over again, neglecting the thesis. Her status in facebook were all about the drama, and her friends have responded in the similar spazzing manners.

In the end, she was all panicking about the thesis, which was not going to make it on time. But when I asked her about it, she simply said she'll go through another semester to finish it.

I'm a kind of a girl who is taking work and responsibilities seriously. Ask my friends, they know about it very well. And so, that kind of attitude only makes me more and more annoyed with her. She was spazzing over the drama for some times, occasionally complained she didn't have money too. It was so dissapointing to the point I sarcastically teased her once, saying that if she has the money to buy pirated DVDs, she should do something better with them. Like, paying for thesis printing or something. Her reply? She said she was collecting the money to pay the for the next semester.


OH MY GOD THE NERVE OF THIS GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And apparently she is not the only one like that.


4 of my friends, who graduated late because they got scholarships for exchange students, told me this. Among about some 40 students that are writing graduation thesis, half of them decided to take another semester. WHILE THEY ACTUALLY STILL HAVE ABOUT 2 MONTHS TO FINISH IT.

I can't be more disappointed. they think 2 months time aren't enough to finish it? I'VE FINISHED MY THESIS IN 2 MONTHS TIME!!! MAYBE LESS!! And my best friend has finished it in less than a month. A MONTH!!!!
They are just lazy-asses!!! No better word to describe! I hope at least some of them actually have at least a proper reason, like caught an illness or something....

And there is another one similar to M girl. Let's call her N now. She never came to see the lecturer to discuss about her thesis, She only came once, at the very start of the last semester and then appeared again only a week before her exam!! When one of the "killer"faculty scolded her for that, she reasoned she was ill. But to the lecturer responsible in guiding her, she admitted that she was afraid of her and that was why she never came.

......I really don't have any word to describe how ridiculous I found the whole thing.

That lecturer is 8 months pregnant!! She is pregnant, still teaching in class, still teaching in at another campus, going back and forth here and there, and she still want to help the linguistic students who ahve to come to her since one of the linguistic lecturer has to go to Japan. COME ONE GIRL, WHAT IS IT YOU'RE AFRAID OF A PREGNANT WOMAN???

Sensei, I really admire and respect you for your kind heart and patience. I honestly ashamed of such a junior. You're still taking care of them while you're with a child, I hope you will give birth safely to a healthy child. God bless you, sensei...

When finally it was the exam day for N, which was the same day as 3 of my friends, she came late. SHE CAME LATE. She was so lucky my friend's exam was delayed due to some reasons, else N will be grilled alive by the examiners.

And she was almost grilled alive indeed. Not only she came late, she also hasn't gave that pregnant lecturer her complete thesis, which was supposed to be given to her at least a week before the D Day, ans she hasn't go yoroshiku yet!!! Tsk, that was the best suicide moment...

(Note: yoroshiku is a Japanese term, which usually translated as "pleased to meet you" or "I will need your help from now on" or something similar like that. It is a humble word to show you are respecting other people. In this thesis writing case, it means showing respect to your examiners like saying "You'll be my examiner, please help me a lot so I can have confidence and can graduate")

Since she was in hiatus for a long time, she didn't even know they have to use their own laptops for presentation. In the end, she borrowed my friend's, which made us have to wait until she finished her exam. My friend and I was chatting for a long time of how ridiculous and annoying the situation that occurred at the time.

Another thing I found weird that day: only a very small number of her classmates were there to accompany the juniors who have exams taht day.

Last year when I have my own exam, almost all of our friends came. We were supporting each other by showing up at every exams except the day before our own exam and if one have some unavoidable problems. This year, there were only a few juniors, not even 10 people. My friends and I questioned it too. I wonder if their friendships are so....well, not in a good term or something (for the lack of a better word), that they were wondered off on their own businesses, or they probably were in panic because their own thesis haven't finished yet.

I honestly don't care.

They have showed how much insolent, rude and arrogant they are from the very first time they stepped in our major, I myself was a victim once.


And now, my last complain.

My last problem actually. My emotion has been up and down these days. I often can't sleep at nights, either I'm nervous and afraid, or too excited. I will depart to Switzerland next Friday, and I found out that I actually have to go ALONE. I thought I will have some friends because Allentine said she went with some friends. Turned out there are only 2 PGD students for Glion this semester and Iriana, the other PGD student, will depart a day after me from Singapore. Whew...

That, and I'm nervous of my english. I haven't spoke in a long proper english sentence for a long time, I hope I can manage there. No, I actually know I can manage. I know my english is quite good, I'm not trying to be vain here, it's a fact! And since Iriana was educated abroad since young, and she is from Management major, I'm sure she will help me a lot! Yoroshiku, Iriana!!!

Christ, please protect me and give me confidence! Help me to go through all of this....




I don't have anything to complain anymore I guess. That was a lot of writings in a day!! I actually feel better today. I've managed to bake 2 batches of brownies after a long time I didn't~

My source for the bombing news came from various media: Yahoo!News, Kompas, MetroTv, TransTV, a celebrity gossip show in TV (ridiculous but it's true), etc....credits go to all of them!!



I'll call it a day now.

Day 12: Actually an old post...

Hello again...


I have so many things to write and now I probably lost most of them, like usual. LOL so much to myself, kkk~

Last week (or so), my high school friend Memel came back from Singapore. She's already back now, and she's there for internship. Anyway, she asked for a mini-reunion with me, Vina, Febby, Tania and Cassie. She even have a crazy idea of a photo studio session with our togas (graduation robes)!! LOL, these girls are so amusing~
So it was settled we will go to Taman Anggrek mall (TA) at 11 am...at last Saturday.

However at Saturday morning, she sms-ed me saying the reunion was postponed to 1 pm because Vina the cat has mandarin lesson in the morning and wanted to go to a hairdresser first (like OMG, they took this photo session really serious!!). Okay, it was fine, as long as they told me earlier.

The problem was, when I finally there at TA, I have to wait for them for 2 and a half hours!!! I even skipped lunch since I thought we'll have lunch together!!! I was tired of walking around all alone there, I even visited The Body Shop who has big sale at the time, trying some body mist and eau de toilette..only to find I'm allergic later.

In the end I texted them like this:

To Memel: Mel, are you guys on the way now?

No answer, so I tried again, to Vina's mobile this time.

To Vina: Meong, if we are about to cancel this, I still can call my chauffeur to pick me up.

They called me soon after. Memel kept apologizing, said that it was Vina's fault for taking too long at the hairdresser, she sang Super Junior's Sorry Sorry to me, but would that work? No, of course not. I was angry, really angry, but what can I do anyway? I'm tired, hungry and pissed.

After that I bought McDonald's choclate sundae, enough to stuff my stomach with anything, whatever. But after that I still have to walk around aimlessly again, waiting for those "nice" friends of mine.

Hello, ladies? YOU WERE MAKING ME WAIT FOR 2 AND A HALF HOURS ALONE JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR HAIR?????


When they finally arrived, I really wanted to explode. REALLY!!! But well, it's me, who is never can explode to someone dear to me. So I didn't explode but really showed them that I was pissed off, and they kept apologizing to me. Heh. At least they still have the manners to do so.

We took those photos after that, and it was quite fun. There wasn't much to tell except that the photos turned out to be both hilarious and disappointing. Vina's expression kept either pervy or silly, and she was always look at the camera (OMG, lw sadar kamera banget si bu???). My face was too....white. I guess it was because I mixed the UV and face powder too much. We even forced the tomboy Cassie to wear make-ups, and her toga wasn't hers in the first place~ Tania didn't have a toga, hers was rented when she graduated, and so she wore her doctor's jacket (for the lack of a better word).

The mix of UI graduate and Atmajaya graduate plus a doctor cum lecturer (yeah, right XD) were pretty interesting :P I wish I can upload the photos here but Memel hasn't uploaded them yet.




After that, we went to eat to Sour Sally. Sour Sally is the first frozen yoghurt in Indonesia. I'll skip the introduction for next time, I'll just say it's extremely popular but I found it....well, standard. The only thing capture my attention was it was very cold! Of course, it was frozen yoghurt. I picked the original taste with longan topping, it was pretty good. The other ordered the strawberrilicious (strawberry-flavored yoghurt) and matcha-flavored yoghurt. The last one didn't appeal to me since I don't like ocha for anything except for drink in its original taste: as a tea. We also ordered a waffle with yoghurt. Tania and Febby insisted me and Memel should try it since we were the ones who never tried Sour Sally before. The waffle came long after the yoghurt finished. And for your information, we ate in a record time: 3 minutes!!! And we ate the cool treats while chatting as normal girls do (LOL)~



When the waffle finally arrived, we attacked it without much further ado XDD It was so pretty with a swirled yoghurt on top plus some mochi toppings. But what we found the most delicious, at least me and Cassie did, was the waffle. It was tasty even without the yoghurt, I wish I can buy the waffle itself without any toppings whatsoever because I love it! This time we finished it in 5 minutes! LMAO!! We were a horde of hungry girls or what??

After that we just went strolling around, wasting time while waiting the photos to be developed. I think we visited some make-up shops because Vina needed a lecture of how to be a pretty woman, so to speak XD plus strolling around in Gramedia book store, because basically there was nothing we could do. They still have interest in comics and mangas it seems. Sadly I no longer interest in mangas. Now that I think of it, it's kind of weird. It feels like all of sudden I lost any interest of them and that's all.


Later, as promised before with me and Memel, we went to eat sushi!! YAY, i looooooveee sushi!!! e went to eat at Hachi Hachi, the same sushi restaurant where we celebrated Vina's birthday last year. Since Febby can't eat raw foods while Tania can't eat spicy ones, we ordered the same thing as last year's. I forgot the name already but they were mixed of sushi without raw ingredients. It was delicious!! Yummy~


















I ordered something like chocolate smoothies drink, the safest drink for me,kkkk~
Btw the second picture was the 2nd batch of sushi we ordered because apparently we indeed have huge stomach. After finishing the 1st order in record time (7 minutes!!!!), we decided we were still hungry.

Memel: Umm....I think I still hungry

Vina: Yeah, me too

Cassie: Is this even normal?

Tania: You don't know it? Sushi has such effect, you'll still feel hungry even after eat a lot of it, you only feel full some times after (this girl really is experienced in foods)

Vina: Okay, so we'll order something else?

Febby: Yeah, let's ask the waiter ofr the menu

All the while Cassie and I only looked amused XD And after the 2nd order was polsihed in another record time (NOTE: we are 6 girls with only a plate of sushi so you know lah....)

Febby: Who's still hungry?

Allexcme: ME!!

Me: You've got to be kidding me! How can you still hungry?? I'm already very full now!

Febby: But we still are! Are you sure you're full already?

Me: VERY!!!

Okay, so even though they said they were still hungry we stopped right there. Because, as Tania previously had said, we will feel full later. After that and fetched the photos, we went to Memel's house at Gang Kelinci. My dad will pick me up there while the others will have a sleepover. Funny was none of them brought a toothbrush, so hilarious these girls, I love them~

While waiting at Memel's house, we were indulged in various conversation like how to do CPR, comics, Super Junior....whatever. I sometimes in awe at how interesting girls' conversations can be, we can switch to one thing to another pretty fast.

Anyway, even though I was pissed at them earlier, I found myself cheerful and happy by the end of the day. I never can hate my friends, I love them to much to do so. They are precious to me....


And as an addition, I've met my junior high school friend Ella today. WOAH, SHE'S MARRIED ALREADY!!! With a white guy, and have a baby already too!! OMG~~~
Okay, no racist thing in previous words, I'm just amazed that's all. I'm happy for you, Ella!!! And I wonder if she's a model or something. She's tall and pretty, plus has a dark skin. Definitely has the cuts to be a model.


Okay, enough to write in a day. I'll continue tomorrow.....maybe..
So sorry for Vina and Cassie, I can't upload good pics of you....(Vina, you deserved it after made me wait that long!)


Let's call it a day now~

Favorite Quotes

Here are the list of my favorite quotes. I value them for how deep and meaningful they are. These are Chinese quotes though, because I read them a lot :P

A batch from maxims by Zhu Zi:

When you eat, remember that the food is the product of hard work. When you put on clothes, keep in mind that materials do not come by easily.

One should repair the house before it rains and not start digging a well when he already feels thirsty.

Utensils used in the house should be plain and clean. Earthenware is better than those made of jade and gold.

Meals need not be sumptuous; finely prepared, simple vegetables can be better than rare delicacies.

Strive to lead a simple and thrifty life; through such example your children will learn the principles of living.

Show sympathy and solicitude to your relatives or neighbors who are in adverse circumstances.

Fortune amassed by unjust means cannot be enjoyed for long; violating moral principles will bring about destruction.

Among brothers and close relations, the more affluent should help the needy.

In a family, parents and children, husband and wife, the older and younger should each do their duty. They should all abide strictly by the rules of behaviour and use appropriate language.

A man who values money more than his parents is a bad son.

when marrying off a daughter, choose a man of good qualities. It is wrong to demand lavish betrothal gifts --- wealth and rank are as transient as a fleeting cloud, a good spouse ensures lasting happiness. A woman's happiness should be entrust to a man of good moral character and talents. Virtue is more precious than wealth.

When choosing a wife for a son, find a girl who is virtuous and genial, not one whose family offers a generous dowry.

When with others, do not talk too much. One who talks too much is prone to say the wrong thing.

People with power and wealth should be kind to people who are not so fortunate as they are. They should not bully the weak, especially the orphaned and widowed.

Eccentricity and conceit often misguide a person and result in regret -- being self-opinionated and turning a deaf ear to the advice of others often result in mistakes and regrets.

One who is spiritless and lazy can achieve nothing -- a man must have courage and dilligence, then he will achieve success. One who muddles along, wallowing in despondence, is destined to be a failure in life.

Men who are experienced, prudent and modest can be depended on during emergency --a man who is steady and cautious may not be fun, but when you need help he is the one you can depend on.

When hearing an accusation, do not readily believe it. Keep your cool and think carefully, for the charge may be false.

Day 11: Grandpa's birthday party, family reunion

Very very good day today la-la-laaaa~




That's the photo of today's event. Yes, today is my grandpa's birthday party. It's supposed to be 2nd June but we held big party (as usual) for him today at Angke Restaurant Kelapa Gading, near MOI. And when I said big, it was really big since my yiyi, the PO, not only invited grandpa's children-grandchildren-grandgrandchildren as usual, she was also invited Tan big family. Tan family is my grandma's family, so her sisters came along with their children and grandchildren. It was so many people we need to arrange the tables like what we usually called "makan meja" in Chinese wedding XDD and of course yiyi placed me and my bro at a table with my cousins who are around my age.



Woah, it's been a long time since I was in a party with them. I barely recognized them except Yoan, and that's only she usually come to my house with her mom to fix her teeth. I almost embarrassing myself with mistaking her brothers Yose and Nathan with my other cousins Edwin and Adry. Tsk tsk, such a big happy family I have here XD
EH, the only thing that stop me for embarrassing myself is the fact that my bro probably know my big family less than me. I don't know if I should be amused or disapointed, but he doesn't even remember the names of my baby cousins and my nephews-nieces. He barely interacted with my cousins, just ate and then drew sketches at his sketch book. What to do with him, I honestly don't know.






Anyway we have fun chatting and talking from school life to Indonesian artists XDD the latter was because suddenly they turned on the karaoke and the songs were....homg, Joshua's "Air", Tina Toon "Bolo-bolo", Noval "Batman", Trio Kwek-kwek's Indonesia song I forgot what's the title, Tasya, Chiquita Meidy, and much much more children songs that made us totally amused and nostalgic!! Well, since my nephews and nieces are still about 2-7 then it's understandable~ Besides, the karaoke set reminds us of our stupid karaoke moments when we were at their age :P The most memorable one was singing The Cranberries "Zombie", with our own makeshift "eah eah eah"....LOL so much, really!

Then the song suddenly changed to.....Kuburan Band "Lupa Lupa Ingat"

.................



O_O



O____________________O



WHUT????


I mean, come on....Kuburan Band reminds me so much of my fellow Starbucks barista partner Jack because he was promoting it during trainee days and now....
Okay it was hilarious I think. Not that the song is bad but the lyrics are really lolastic my cousin had said XD and I don't know who was the culprit but the song was turned over and over again in the end of the party it's stuck in my head...and my cousins'.




Well. All in all we have a really good time~
And I heard next week or about 10 days from today is one of my yipo's birthday :P Another family party/reunion to attend to I guess~


I actually found a funny pic today, from my friend's facebook, but I'll upload it tomorrow I think :P

I'll call it a day now~

Day 10: Whut?

Hai thar today...


I've been attacked by a full boredom since yesterday and I wonder why. I have a lot things to do like mandarin (ugh!), checking my wardrobe, checking Glion website, searching for my lost photo CD, write down some recipes (halfway done), checking my shoes....eh, I even planned to bake brownies again but I'm too lazy to do it in the end.


And my brother sounds a bit pissed off since this noon. He keeps changing his facebook status with things like "AAAAAAAARRRGHHH!!" or "DO not disturb" or similar things that screamed "touch me and die. I'm totally pissed". I'm so used to hear him yelled or overall being PMS.





Oh oh oh yesterday I went shopping with mom, I finally bought red wine!! Yay, I miss drinking red wine so much (especially with my tummy problems)!! I drank two little cups already up till now :P
And when I strolled passed Starbucks, my friend Rendhy was there! Rendhy, why do every time I go to MKG you were never there? Wheh, but two thumbs up for you and Daniel! You two, along with Santi at SenCy are the ones who are still loyally work in our beloved cafe~ Obviously Clemens, Jack & me were retired already, though Clemns & me still often joke about customers XDD and of course, Ana was MIA since a long time ago. I wonder why. Was it just because her store is far from her campus?
Oh Rendhy, thanks for the free tall no whipped dark berry mocha <3 It was very very berry even though only a pump of syrup (but it's blueberry, no wonder....).I'm not really fancy it but it's not bad. I still prefer my beloved double choco cream chip (oreo, my barista partners said) or raspberry blackcurrant or a simple latte. Yummy~ I love milk hence the double choco cream chip, so what XD




Today is...la-la-laaaa.....Benito, you dork! Why didn't you tell me earlier that you have facebook??? Tsk, and here I thought you're already forgot about me, your DBSK/Suju/SHINee/FTTS BFF in crime (that's self-proclaimed, please ignore it). And now I see we do have different style of music....or maybe different ill too. I missed those times last year when you were asking me Noonan nomu yeppeo HQ MV after I gave you their 1st album and an LQ MV :P Not a dongbangers anymore hm? Well, that's okay. I am one too, I really missed their korean songs....just come back here misters XD
Why do I found it a bit hilarious now that you like Suju the most? Oh oh oh maybe because I was the one who gave you their old MVs plus some show clips and some MV behind the scenes/makings? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!

Speaking of korean fandom......I was scarred with 2NE1. Female Big Bang? Not that it was a bad idea for the group to make such a funky girl band but why do they have to announced it as female Big Bang? Their fame will be always related to BB itself, I really wish it won't be like that. I'm sure they can be famous on their own later but I really don't like such title.

Anyway.

The thing that scarred me was a performance video of the girls I saw in youtube, thanks to my meimei Pei. Well, i was impressed at 1st, this is the 1st girl singers I've ever seen dancing with sneakers instead of high heels in k-music...well, just as far as I have seen though. BUT it was totally destroyed by the magnae's chest pumps.

HELLO, HELLO. CHEST PUMPS. CHEST PUMPS?????

A young woman did chest pumps??? And the youngest of the four at that!!! OMG what were they thinking, making such a young woman did chest pumps?? EWWWWW!!!! Totally inappropriate both for me & my meimei!!!

Btw their style are so...uh....BB horrible style. They might think it's funky but not for me....


I suddenly remember my drema last night. I was in a kind of military team consisted of 3 women & a man as the team captain. One of the other women was Li Yu Chun, the famous chinese androgyny singer (I mean she's a total tomboy). I was the one with the heaviest weapon sets too. Just like Vasquez in the old movie "Alien". The setting was in a modern city below a hill or mountain,and we were armies in an academy that, weirdly, was focused in languages. So all projects were about language & how to overcome language barriers.


.....ROFLMAO much?


Seriously, armies in language academy?



Well. Random dream but quite entertaining I should say.


Okay so I have enough rantings for the day. Let's go back to (ugh!) mandarin now.

Zhao ju zhao ju...


I'll call it a day now.

Day 9: ..........annoying

Hi there...

I AM SLEEPY!!!!

And that's all because of my friend Siska, who made me wait for hours in msn!!

Lemme tell you the whole story...


It was around 11 am when i was chatting with ShinyIslandMan as usual when Siska poked me. She told me that she's a bit agitated....scared perhaps, since next week is her finals and she'll start her internship soon. She said she's worried of the job, probably because she knows no one at her interns place, and she's scared to be separated with her best friend Ci Yenny.

The last one really makes me annoyed.

Ok, knowing her, I understand she'll feel scared and nervous since she's so much like me when I was her age. She's timid, shy, innocent, but curious as well.
Ci Yenny is a master student in the same school as her, about 3 years older than me, and apparently such an important figure for her: an older sister, best friend, advisor. Ok, I don't mind. What irritated me is instead of be more mature and independent, she's only became too dependent to ci Yenny.





Siska, what's the point of schooling abroad if you don't try to spread your wings, expand your knowledge, polish your skills...and most of all, be independent and mature by your own way?

Honestly, I'm disapointed with you. I try to understand, really, what's wrong with you? Did something bad happened and made you traumatized or you are always this weak-willed?

And by the way.....just before I could give her one or two decent advices, she was gone offline, said she needed to go back to dorm and will be online again in 10.

She did online again....at 3 am Indonesian time.

She has made me waiting for hours, after making me worried of her, and thank God this girl still know how to apologize. But then she was brb again to shower for about an hour. I was half-dead already, it was 4 am!!!!
At least I still have ShinyIslandMan to talk to while waiting for this girl.

Siska, you never acted like this before. I'm not asking you to respect me, only to appreciate other people's care and concern for you. Are you really that stressed until you, who always polite to elders, started to act slightly rude to me?


Nevertheless, I'm still annoyed until now. I guess I do hold grudges for long~


By the way, ShinyIslandMan also got a problem with someone younger than her XD that girl is around Siska's age, she's a Polish living in Lithuania. She commented on SIM's entry in polish, suddenly talking to her as if they know each other for a long time while SIM doesn't even recognize her :P then when she found out SIM makes headers and animated icons, she was suddenly "asked" for her to make Big Bang icons.

ROFLMAO much?

SIM never made BB icons, dear~ <3 she might be listening to their songs but not a fan, so your request is impossible...and excessive considering you didn't even use "please" and uninvited.

It doesn't have to be elderly to say "youngsters these days are impolite/rude, doing anything they want without respect to elders"


And mandarin still killing me!!! >.<

I'm so sleepy right now, and that's all that girl's fault for keeping me awake until 4 am!!



Enough ranting, now is mandarin time! I'll call it a day now.

Day 8: Uh....I have no idea really...

Good day~

Woah, it's been a REALLY long time...

So many things happened during those days I was absent updating I eventually forgot what I wanted to write :P
I guess I'll write whatever I have in mind (isn't that the point of writing journal??)

First of all, the thing that happened recently and I still remember the most. I'm one of the moderators of a community in LJ: minnie_a_day. Basically the mods have to post one pic of Sungmin everyday and we have made a rotation turn for each of mods, we have 5 mods here. I got Thursday and that's the day I usually update. The starter of the comm is Jan, my Philippine friend. Since she is the starter she usually updates the most and also covers when the other mods can't update. Aside of the 5 mods ( Jan, ai_sumairu, sungminxx, hotarumyst and I) we also have an uploader, catchmyambition, though she doesn't want to be a mod. Anyway she's really helpful.

The roblem is: last week I got a surprise. After I posted at 21th May, no one post anything until catchmyambition posted at 27th (wednesday). I admit I was ignorant as well, only realizing it when I updated at thursday although I do feel something was amiss. And I was totally confused after that. Like I said, Jan usually covers when the otehrs can't post...so where is she?

Luckily I have her msn & I contacted her there. She said she's busy and really, it doesn't matter, we all have our business too and I'm not surprised. WHat really caught me was the total blank in a week. And one more thing: hotarumyst still updates her own LJ (and DA) with her arts. Which brought up a question: why doesn't she update in our comm? She's one of the mods, for God's sake!!! D:<

In the edn, Jan and I decided to contact the three other mods. Before I did so though, I checked the comm again to make sure of things. I found that ai_sumairu is still updating, only missing a week when she had exams and I found the proof in her LJ. Okay so I didn't need to contact her. As for sungminxx, Jan said she's very busy with school and rarely updates her own LJ, this one also true but I still send her a message to tell her about the problems and her availability in the mods jobs.

I've decided to be a little harsh to hotarumyst since this girl is our biggest problem. She's 14, an artist that often updates with her arts, still in school, but rarely updates in our comm....I think she needs to learn about responsibility again. 14 is old enough to know about this thing.
So far both of them haven't replied yet, so I'll see when the time comes.

2nd problem is.....seems like I myself am not good in managing my own schedules, which will be dangerous in the future. I often browsing the net, too captivated I presume, but still too lazy to do my mandarin homeworks, to check my wardrobe, to re-read my welcome booklet, to try ironing with my aunt's iron, to read a lot of books that mountain my room....and the worst of all of them: I know it is bad but I'm still doing it.


.....I must say I'm very sad & disapointed with the fact.


I'm a 23 years old woman, I should've be a mature woman like my age. I know I have responsibilities, I have my duties, ad yet still lazing around.


I tell myself over and over agian if I keep slacking off it'll be bad in the future, that it'll be bad for me & those around me, plus it's not good for my health too.

And I'm still like this.


Praying to God won't help either, since it's useless to wish upon something but not doing anything to reach your goals.

Basically it's my biggest problem now...


My 3rd problem (not that I remember), is not actually a big problem.....or maybe not yet. I just saw my friend Allentine pictures of a party in Glion. Well. It's scaring me a bit since Europeans drink a lot and there are bottles of alcohol everywhere. Of course I can avoid too much drinking....I'm just hoping I won't be dragged too deep. I don't want to be a party animal or a drunkard or whatever bad things. And I'm sure I can trust Allentine to take care of herself. God bless us to stay true to ourselves....


....and I really have no idea what to write again for now. I'll edit this entry if I remember other things i have to add here.


So for now.....I'll call it a day.