Day 7: chatting, friend, birthday

It's been a long time....


So yeah, every time I want to write something here, there were always some things up.....from the silliest to funniest I even forgot already what those were.
Sometimes I think I'm scatterbrain that way....

Anyway today is my birthday, I'm officially older (not that I'm not old XD) but I'm happy! Last night right at 00:00, my family came to my room with a chocolate cake & candles. My room smelt like burnt candles for a while but at least we ate the cake outside. But actually I was chatting with my cousin at the time. She's getting married next year and asked me to help her choose a gown from the designs she had chose herself. A hard task since they are all sooo pretty!!!

It seems that she has a problem choosing gown because of her soon-to-be mother-in-law. She prefers something simple yet elegant while her mother-in-law wants something....hmmm.....how to put it....elegant & luxurious I guess. I prefer her style though, I never liked too luxurious dresses. I sometimes wonder when I will tie the knot too, hahahaha~ obviously will take a long long time since I'm still happily single right now :P

Another problem is she's planning to get married by next summer & I don't know if I can make it to be her bridemaid since it's the time for my internship. I'm not exactly sure, but obviously it'll start at summer break as usual internship would do. I hope I can make it, I really want to see her in her wedding dress~


Back to birthday topic.....I got a lot of love from my facebook friends today XDD I've replied almost all of them one by one. Sounds crazy? Not for me. I wnat to appreciate all of them. Besides, I'm kinda free. Kinda.

And tonight I got another surprise: my good ol' friend Ochol added my MSN and we suddenly chat a lot about the old days and now XDD Funny how happy I am with such a simple thing. Maybe this is because I missed my old friends & he was one of the closest friends I've got when I was little.....only if you put aside his pranks. Agh....
But he's funny as ever XD some things never change I see, and I'm grateful for that.
Btw we are still chatting now but he is being brb to take a bath~

The next time they held primary school reunion again, they have to invite me!


As for now, as I write this entry, I'm also reading the 2009-2010 catalogue of GIHE, my soon-to-be school in Switzerland. I'm trying to choose which subject I will take. I think this catalogue is a bit different from last year's. I've noticed there are less subjects to take for PG students, which actually is advantageous for me, I was confused for a while of which subject to take. I only have minimum 36 credits but there are much more credits I have to take, just because there are a lot of subjects I wanted to take. With less subjects available, it's easier for me to choose.

I hope I won't fail any class. The school fee is expensive, VERY, so I have to do my best. JIA YOU!!


Speaking of studying, I think I want to complain about laoshi again. Once again I said she's too demanding!!! And she forgot which part I have to learn & memorize, so what I has studied last night was almost, ALMOST ALL, useless. Hhh......but what exactly I can say? She's not a young woman, she's my mom's age. If she's forgetful, then it's the work of nature, and she's an elder to me so I can't get angry no matter how annoyed I was.

Well, not exactly :P

I did protest at her. She gave me too much zuo ye!!! Writing a letter, making 13 zhao ju, memorizing about 35 vocabs (and what I've memorized are the ke wen), plus memorizing a short poetry by Li Bai!!! Huh, I was up until 3 AM just because memorizing the ke wen.....granted taht I love Li Bai's poetries but still....
Then during class today what she told me to do convo with were the previous ke wen....argh!!!!

And like I said, I can't do anything about it.

If I tell this to ShinyIslandMan, she probably will scold me again for being so passive & "too polite to someone who take advantage of you". Uh-huh, I know that. But it' smy nature & it's a habit that hard to change.

I'm glad I've decided to write a blog, I really need a place to let out all feelings kept within this heart-mind-soul that I couldn't let out.




I'll call it a day for now~

Day 6: shopping, friends

Today is....a so-so day at first and a happy day now as I write this~


I went to Artha with mom to buy some fruits and a purse I've been wanting to buy since a long time (but mom always declined, said that I will fine it cheaper at MangDu). I saw my dream purse at Elizabeth but at the time it was so expensive....about 300.000rupiah! No wonder mom said that...

But when we arrived, the purse wasn't there anymore. I was totally pissed off and mom can sense that, she knew how much I wanted the purse but because she drived me off again & again now it was already sold out. So mom offered to go to Elizabeth at MKG, maybe we wil find it there. Before that, we went to Diamond to buy some fruits, milk and other necesary things.


Luckily, I found that purse at Elizabeth MKG (and yes, the price is still 300.000) but I don't care and we bought it at last. Here's the pic of that purse. I have my reasons to buy it: it is big enough I don't have to fold my money, has lots of pockets to slip cards inside, and it is thick and save!


I forgot to mentione it before but yesterday I also bought another dress. This one is simple and casual, just a grey dress without any patterns on it. I like it for its simplicity (and because I'm fascinated with dresses lately).

And tonight I found some childhood friends from primary school in facebook! O.O and some of tehm actually went to a small reunion at MKG last week....WHYYYYY didn't I know anything about it?? Chan2 why didn't you tell meeee???? I missed them so much!! Why it is only now I found them while I've been searching them for a long long time?? T_______________T

Anyway

As I see it from the bright side, I found some old friends via that friend, Fani. YAY!!! I'm still happy~


I'll call it a day now, I still have mandarin homework to do~

Day 5: shopping, food, headache, prayer

I wonder if it's a good day....


Well, obviously yesterday was a good day. I chatted with ShinyIslandMan, as usual, but that was the first time we talked about fashion XD we both love Korean fashion though she loves tomboy and casual style while I like both casual and dresses....
She was complaining of how her mom doesn't approve her clothing style, auntie wants her to wear dresses like me :P

See, this is my dress~
Auntie wants her to wear something like this (ShinyIslandMan told me so).

To be honest I'm a bit embarrassed too, this one seems so flowery but since she said it's not childish and I will look good in it, okay then.

Btw ever since I bought this one, I started to enjoy looking at dresses. Before I wasn't confident enough to wear dresses, skirts or shorts. I only wear jeans. But now I guess it's about time I give it a try. I'm old enough to do so 0(^.^)0

Anyway, today I went shopping with mom at Mangga Dua. Originally we wanted to buy stockings and purse for me, plus looking around just in case we find some nice sweaters for winter. In the end, I bought a simple grey dress, mom bought a blouse, and it was only much later when we decided to go home when we finally found a kiosk that sells stockings, socks and tights (which are what I bought). Mom said I should wear dresses more often since I'm "still young, beautiful and fair-skinned". Aiya....

Anyway ever since we found out I have cholesterol problem, I've been trying to eat oatmeal at least once a day. I like oatmeals, I can eat it with whatever foods available in my house as long as it has broth or a soup. Yesterday I ate oatmeal with opor and today I ate it twice with burger meat and cap cay (however I suppose to write it anyway?).

But the so-called lowering cholesterol rate (I don't know how to write this either) was epically failed when mom decided we will buy KFC for me & gege's lunch. Oh man.....and here I thought I could skip junk foods for a while......

And then, I don't know why, the moment we reached home, I got massive headache. My head was pounding (and perhaps still is now, I'm not sure), maybe because we got home late and I'm not used to eat late like that. It was already 4 PM when I finished lunch and bathed, it was too late to catch a nap so I just browsed internet and played Coffee Buzzed as usual.

Well, at least I'm not in a total bad mood like the other day.

Btw dad lost his StarOne sim card. Why are all the men in my house so careless and ignorant??? Like father like son.......


I was chatting with Siska for a while before I write this, she is eating dinner now. Since I often online, she always seeks for advices to me.

I want to pray a bit here, since I usually can't even open my heart enough to see things in my heart.

Lord, I want to thank You for letting me feel like this. Ever since I was little I always let people take advantage of me. I let my childhood friends copied homeworks I had done with so much efforts and they didn't even thank me. I let them ignored me after all I've done to them. However during my later days, You has made them open my eyes of how annoying I was being. Now I am changed and I hope for the good. I often feel lonely, which I know mostly because my friends are already working or because they still think I'm the annoying girl from the past, I try not to care too much. Lord, I thank You for giving me blessings, for letting me develop the thought of trying to see everything form every sides available. I am most grateful that I can share my past experiences to my younger friends: ShinyIslandMan, Ari and Siska. I feel like an older sister for them and I really grateful for the chance You're giving to me.
I am grateful I have Widi as my friend, even though I feel neglected at times, it's always me who calls her and never her to me. I understand though, she is more charming and friendly, she has a lot of friends who care. I'm not the only one but I'm still happy and proud she still sees me important.
Lord, I know I'm materialistic, I always greedy and selfish, always want more and more than I should have to. Still, this is what You gave me to control myself, I trust You and I know this is an imprtant lesson from You. I love You for every single thing You gave me and plan for me, whatever it will be. Please guide my way so that I still can be myself and not walk into the wrong path.

Amen.


I'll call it a day now.

Day 4: family, food, Church

I have a long day today


I started the day with fair mood but it changed through the day. See, today I was supposed to go to Mangga Dua to buy clothes and other things necessary for school abroad. She told me to prepare early. Turned out she has to help dad in surgery until 11.30 am and of course it wasn't what I think "early". Still mom insisted I have to go. I've tried to tell her that I wasn't in the mood anymore but did she listen to me? Like usual, no. She just went "okay be prepared, as soon as your dad finished lunch we'll go"...........and I was saying "I'm not in the mood..." but she just cut me in the middle.

What the.......well, that was enough to make me pissed.

But then just when I was trying to get up and change my clothes, she yelled from downstairs that we'll just go at Monday since she was tired and so did dad.


Why am I still upset about this? My opinions are rarely matters to them. Friends and family wise.

I remember when I was in school, from primary school until university, people rarely listen to me. I still remember when Etas snapped at me just because I was telling her about Kakek and his book. Furthermore, during our graduation day preparation, some of my friends who were the dominant voices in our grade went off to take some pics at kompleks candi. They just left Chibi, Ufie, Himmi and me, who were sitting on another table next to them in kansas, as if we weren't there.

If it was just me, I'm not surprised anymore. But they even left Ufie, Himmi & Chibi who are close to them!!! Such a nice friend....


Anyway, since today is Waisak and dad doesn't need to go to Depok, mom decided we would go to Church this evening. Yes, we did go but once again this so called "discrimination" occurred.

As usual, mom took a nap in my room. She seemed surprised when she saw my window's tills were dusty and began complaining that our maid hasn't clean it properly. (I'm not surprised really. Any normal human will found it annoying to clean things until no dust appear at all every single day, even mom does when our maids are going back home during Lebaran. But since maids' jobs are to clean I guess I have nothing to say). Then she told me to clean it, and so does my bamboo tablet, and she said it has to be clean when she woke up.

I've chose to do it later, I need to do my "meditation"......walking around the room with music in my ears. When mom woke up and saw me meditating and the window tills still dusty, she muttered under her breath "always says yes but not doing it" and then went out to take washcloths and gave one to me, silently orders me to clean my bamboo.

Mom didn't trust me, huh? Should I laugh or what?

But it really made me pissed.


And then it happened again.

I was already bathed from an hour & a half before, just because I have to apply make-up. But at the supposed departure time, my dad & gege haven't even take a bath! And I still could here Merlin's theme song from downstairs.........meaning that they were still watching TV. I asked my mom if we were really going and she simply said "Yes, we are! Dad & gege just need 5 minutes to bath!".

Okay, I know it, so I didn't rushing in changing. But then, when gege was in the bathroom after dad, mom came to my room and scolded me when she saw I still combing my hair and haven't change my clothes yet. Then she yelled again to hurry when I was in the toilet.


Do I......really have to say anything at all?


I was totally grumpy on the way to Church.

I don't know why, but Church is really a holy place I think. Either that, or it's because I'm raised as a good Catholic girl, I always found the Church so calming and nice. Even though I never say out loud the prayers, always mouthing only, and never sing any song, just listening to others sing them. No matter how bad my mood was when I entered the Church, I always feel better after the sermons ended (only failed once but usually like this) and that was what happened today.

Choi Siwon and Kim Junsu, We will be good friends indeed. I have to bring my rosary (and perhaps my bible and puji syukur too, if it's not too heavy) to Glion, and I have to find an English Catholic Church there or I'll really going to die of depression!!


By the way it happened again after sermons. During the last speech in Church I asked mom what will we have for dinner and my mom suggested to eat at Sate Senayan. She refused to eat Dudung (mutton soup) because the soup has a lot of fats and we both have cholesterol problems. So I agreed, we would eat satay.

Then when mom asked dad & gege in the car, gege seemed hesitant because he wanted to go home for work and he complained he always unlucky at choosing food in Sate Senayan. Dad then suggested Dudung take-away when he heard mom told him that was what I previously suggested. And then what happened? Mom said "Okay, Dudung then"

......................OMG?

And then gege suddenly said it was okay to eat satay and....of course we finally ate dinner at Sate Senayan.



Well.

Dad always the first in our family and gege always the second. I'm always at the bottom line.


I'm still irritated at being ignored but not as grudging as earlier today.


I'll just go do my mandarin homework now.


GANBATTE!!! JIA YOU!!! FIGHTING!!!!



I'll call it a day now.

Day 3: noise, strawberries

Good day


I woke up late again. I really need a stronger alarm I think. And I have a weird dream too, involving 2PM.......dorks are annoying me even in my dream XDD


Anyway, interesting things happened during today's mandarin lesson.

When i was arrived, there was lao shi's friend who was being treated with acupuncture by her. Then she moved to lao shi's room so we could start the lesson.

Half an hour later, Andre, a high school student who is also lao shi's student, came joined us.

Then the next -door neighbor, I don't know what happened, but it sounded like they were arguing and with a very loud voice too. And from somewhere, I don't know from inside the house or outside, there was a mandarin song being played. Probably a karaoke video or radio. Then when lao shi's friend came out of the room to the bathroom, the dog inside the house started barking. Hearing that, the poodle outside was also barking.

When the fried decided to go home, lao shi has to go out since her friend's house key was inside lao shi's car. Of course, the dogs were barking again when they heard their noises. It was soooo noisy!!!

As if they weren't enough, when lao shi was outside, the phone was ringing too!

It was utter chaos!!! So much noise & so many things happened at once Andre and I started to laugh at the situation~
And we didn't know where was nan lao shi at the time, he was suddenly dissapeared!!


After that, there was nothing interesting except Andre wrote 玉 (which lao shi said as king, I thought it was jade) upside down because he copied how lao shi wrote it for him and she was sitting in front of her XDDDD


When I got back home, I was too tired and lazy to cook steak like mom told me so. I just decided to eat pork meatballs from my yiyi.


Speaking of foods....I've ate a lot of strawberries today :P

At noon mom gave me some cut into pieces strawberries she bought from the market this morning. She also told me there was a strawberry juice in the fridge and i have to drink it before it turns bad (I drank it after my so late evening lunch).

Just now, right before I write this entry, she came with another set of strawberries.


I don't mind, strawberries are delicious and healthy......but I found it funny how much strawberries inside my tummy in a day~


Oh and I got another spam message in MSN via my meimei's account. That needs-to-get-a-life-person really annoying......tsk....

I'm currently chatting with ShinyIslandMan so...


I'll call it a day~

Day 2: fish, chicken, oatmeal

Good day.....(just a greeting)


Today I woke up at 10 AM.......two hours late from my original plan T_____T

It wasn;t exactly my fault. I slept at 3 AM because my friend Siska has poked me in MSN and it's been a long time since I talked with her. Besides, the content of our convo was interesting. VERY interesting.

I never expected one of the hotel school in Switzerland could be so....low-maintained or whatever good word I should put inside. She said she got bitten by insects (read: kutu kayu/kutu busuk) and the school wasn't taking care of the problem seriously! Some students already reported the case before but they did not get any response. At least now the school is taking care of it.....after they reported to the Headmaster. When Siska check her itchy bumps (yg 1 infeksi pula) to the school nurse, she (or he) insisted that it wan't because of the kutu. How irresponsible of them in handling the students' care & well-being.

The moral of the case: studying abroad isn't that cool.

Anyway


I went to Fish Spa with mom, gonggong and yiyi this noon. Fish spa....sounds weird but it's true. They said the fish eat our skins (baca: kulit ari) and it will make our skin healthier, with less unneeded skin.

(You know what I mean but I'm trying hard to write journals in english)

The moment we sat down in the fish tank, the fishes immediately attacked gonggong's feet. Wow, his feet must be very tasty and have lots of fish food. Mom, on the other hand, barely got any fish visiting her feet because she often scrubs her feet during bath time. Yiyi got some fishes too...........and it took a long time for the fishes to come to me, maybe because my skin is dry and chapped (yah pokonya kering lah) so the fishes have to wait until it soften.

If you ask me how it feels like.......well, i feel kesemutan. Whatever the word in english XDD


Ok, ticklish and kesemutan (still whatever the english word is). It was ticklish at first sinc ethere were only 2 or 3 fishes came to me but after yiyi out of the tank, I got more. About 6 perhaps.
Then after gonggong out of the tank??

O.O fully kesemutan I'd say.....

They were attacking me aalmost as soon as gonggong out!!!! Wow, it was a bit scary sight to see (fishes eat your feet??)
At least I'm assured that dead people in the sea.........ehm......well.........I'll censore what was I going to say. Yeah.

Btw after that we went to eat with another yiyi......and she brought her armies: her daughters, her grandchildren, and the baby sitter. I wasn't surprise anymore, it's nothing new.

Mom said my biaomei looks old with the glasses she was wearing. I'm not sure if it's true or not. She's always extrovert and stylish and daring compared to me.

Back to the topic.......I can't believe such a nice and comfy restaurant can forgot a customer's request. They really forgot my chicken katsu!!! I was left sms-ing with Ci Clif talking about Siska and Ade for a while before my biaojie decide to ask about my order. And when it arrived, it only has small prtion of grated carrot. And they wrote "with salad" in the menu. The only thing good was the kefir, the yoghurt like drink. It was very sour, exactly what I wanted.



Please, Solaria is much better than this (and with the same price too!)........


As for dinner, I was too lazy to cook so I've decided I'll just have oatmeal eaten with leftover veggie soup. The latter was my mom's suggestion since I didn't have any idea what to eat with the oatmeal and I can't eat it plain.
But when I opened the oatmeal package, I found there were things like........sticky things. Like kutu beras that left some sticky things to the rice or Japanese natto (hey, no bad feelings for the natto, they are quite tasty for me anyway). Mom said it's bad already so......bye bye my oatmeal dinner! (sigh)

In the end I have to cook my favorite dish, beef kailan, with mom. That's better than having nothing to eat. Hhhh....


So many things can happen in a day, yeah? Now I hope I'll remember to bring my camera the next time we go to Fish spa again....if there is a next time....


Now let's call it a day.....

Day 1 the 2nd

Yes, day 1 the 2nd


I just want to share what I have done today since the 1st one was like an introduction (if you can call it introduction tho)

Well, today's mandarin lesson wasn't really good. I forgot I have to memorize the conversations (there are a lot!!) and well....hhh....laoshi is too demanding for me. I mean, from her stories about the disciples she has. She always praises me because she thinks I'm diligent and clever (who knows whatever she thinks actually) compared to another disciple of her, who is already working. SHe said this woman is lazy, never re-learn what she has got from her teachings. I can't blame her, really, although listening to laoshi's ramblings about her is funny. I mean, she's a working woman while I'm just waiting to go abroad, of course I have more time to spend. And having more time to spend doesn't mean I can spend it all with mandarin >.< I have other things to take care of.....like study preparations

Though I have to admit I'm kinda addicted to chatting. Well, my best friends are hilarious, especially my dearest ShiningIslandMan.....I can be an adorkable girl with her~

I cooked hamburgers for dinner with mom today....I hope my hair doesn't smell like smoked beef now.

And now, while I'm writing this, I'm fooling around in facebook while watching Idol Army SHINee vs 2PM. The show was so hilarious~ I don't know how many times I've watched it already but who cares....I need something to tickle my tummy with so much things I have to think and do.

HUrry up and go online SHinyIslandMan.........I just need someone to be dorkies together with XDD


So let's call it a day then....

Day 1

Let's start the day



This is not the first attempt of writing a blog......

....and I'm already at a loss of what to write >.<


Okay, I'll start to write about myself first.

I'll be 23 this year.....no wait....I'll be 23 soon. I was born in the year of tiger and I'm of Chinese descent. I have an older brother & we both are living with my parents. I'll be out of the house soon though, I'm going to Switzerland for Postgraduate Study.

Speaking of PG, I'm a bit worried about this one. Sure, I was living in a dorm during my university days, but Switzerland is far far away from home plus -probably- with a very different cultures. I just hope I'll do everything right. The school fees & living costs are way to expensive and the last thing I want to do is burden my parents even more.

I've been stressing over those problems since I've first decided I'll continue my study there. Then again, is it really my decision at all? I've decided to take the study because:
1. my former study in Japanese major isn't enough for me
2. cultural study & translations aren't highly appreciated by my countrymen
3. being raised in a country with such stereotypes has made me doubt my future living & welfare

.....maybe those 3 are enough for now.


I should check whatever things I need to bring there....


I guess it's enough for the first blog.


I'll call it a day then.